ever come a time where everything just seem to slip out of your grasp? like the things you knew you had, you just somehow let it ran away? &you didnt even get a chance to say goodbye to it all. and you were obviously not prepared for it either. maybe its because you love it too much you cant seem to let go.
ohk someone tell me to stop, please. you know, dont know how someone can feel so sad with such good company. feels like i fell into something i cant get myself out from.
but someone tell me, how come people always go, and come back? i mean, going is fine. we all just learn to deal with it over and over, you know? like a part and parcel of helping us grow up. but when people come back, and then go off again. its just too much to take.. right? because letting go once was already so hard.
this sucks. things always doesnt go the way i planned it! most of the time it turns out better, but sometimes shit just spills all over. im in the latter. fuck, do i sound pathetic? i have to stop this seriously. i just need to keep telling myself that im a happy camper, im a happy camper, im a happy camper, im a happy camper.
but we know we have to wait, as the days go on and the places fade away to dirt and to dust, it all fades away. &the waiting is the hardest thing to take, in a moment more before we break. so if you have to let it go, &these dreams keep you awake, just walk away.
ohk anyway, here is an extract of one of my daily conversations with kevin&zm. but zm wasnt talking because he was D.O.T.A-ing(dogs on the air!)
kaypeebaby says (1:57 AM):
ahhaha shit
kaypeebaby says (1:57 AM):
i wanted to type the word 'shit' right
kaypeebaby says (1:57 AM):
den i typed 'why'
kaypeebaby says (1:58 AM):
HAHA EH I JUST REMEMBERED WHAT I DREAMT OF LAST NIGHT KEVIN
kaypeebaby says (1:58 AM):
I TELL YOU I TELL YOU
Kevin says (1:58 AM):
lol
Kevin says (1:58 AM):
what???
kaypeebaby says (1:58 AM):
HAHAHAA
kaypeebaby says (1:58 AM):
i dreamt that i was a spy
kaypeebaby says (1:58 AM):
and i had a really cool outfit
kaypeebaby says (1:58 AM):
and. i was a spy.
Kevin says (1:58 AM):
omg...
Kevin says (1:58 AM):
are u serious?
Kevin says (1:58 AM):
hahaha
kaypeebaby says (1:59 AM):
YAAAAA!!!!!! and i was sneaking into libraries. i dunno why.
kaypeebaby says (1:59 AM):
and i think i was running away from something
kaypeebaby says (1:59 AM):
but im supposed to be a spy
Kevin says (1:59 AM):
hahah
Kevin says (1:59 AM):
why spy sia..
Kevin says (1:59 AM):
hahaha
Kevin says (1:59 AM):
u have a wide imagination
Kevin says (1:59 AM):
lol
kaypeebaby says (2:00 AM):
AHAHHAA! no it was a dream!
kaypeebaby says (2:00 AM):
so i think it was an email from a ghost.
kaypeebaby says (2:00 AM):
maybe my future, is to be a spy
ming says (2:00 AM):
LOl
ming says (2:00 AM):
WTH
AHHAHA ohk. i dont know why i dream funny. but ziming has weird dreams too. he dreamt he beat someone up for YS. HAHA. ohk i shant say who. KEVIN KNOWS KEVIN KNOWS. ohk fine so his dream was cooler than mine! anyway, word of the day,
ming says (2:09 AM):bitch.
cause you shine brighter, than anyone
yours truly
